My Guilt

I don’t understand…
I want to understand,
I want to know,
I want to see
Into your world…
A world that is no more…
What happened?
What happened to you?
I don’t understand
What’s going on…
I want to cry,
But I can’t cry at all…
The tears are frozen,
My heart is raw…
It aches.
I can’t help but wonder
If it would have been different,
If something might have changed…
But nothing was changed,
Nothing happened,
And now it’s over…
There’s nothing more I can do,
I cannot be a better friend,
Because you’re not here
For me to be a friend to…
Heaven help me,
I don’t know what to say,
I don’t know what to do!
Everything aches,
Everything reminds me
Of you and what happened…
May you rest in peace…
Peace is a blessing I fear
I will never receive again….

~ April 11, 2009 ~