For Darren

It's not possible,
I refuse to believe...
And yet the proof is there,
In sad glances,
Mourning words...
You were alive,
Just yesterday...
I saw you in study hall
At the beginning of the week...
You're not gone,
You're not!
I refuse to believe...
I refuse to think...
I came so close to this,
It kills me to think
That what I refused to do
Has taken you away...
I don't understand.
I don't see what was so horrible...
I don't understand...
You had friends,
Family that loved you...
And you gave it all
For...
For what?
I don't know what to think,
I don't know what to say...
I can't cry,
It doesn't make sense...
I didn't know you that well,
But you were always nice to me...
What happened?
Now you're gone,And I can't begin to imagine
Never seeing you again,
Never passing you in the halls,
Never hearing you talk in study hall...
You're gone for good,
And I can't believe it...
I'm numb,
I can't feel a thing...
I must be strong...
There are others
Who were so much closer to you...
I must be strong for them...
I cannot cry.
I cannot think.
I must be strong for you...
I must be strong.
~ April 10, 2009 ~