Emotion

My world is topsy-turvy,
Crazy and out of place.
It always gets this way,
But for once I wish it would stop!
I want to get off,
I never paid for this ride!
This emotional roller coaster
Just won't slow down,
It just won't stop!
I think I'm fine,
And then something hits,
Something strikes
And I can't hold back the flood.
My emotions take the reins,
And I can't control a thing.
You smile and blow a kiss,
And all is right.
But you're leaving,
And suddenly all is wrong.
What is wrong with me?
I see you in the hall,
And I smile and laugh...
Then something reminds me of them,
And all joy is crushed,
And the world turns black and cold.
I don't understand
Why it has to be like this...
And I don't understand
Why you put up with it.
But I know that you do,
And I pray you do not stop.
You are my rock,
Especially now,
And although jealous fear
Rages within,
The love I feel for you
Drives the fear away.
Perhaps I'm right.
Perhaps I'm wrong!
I don't know.
All I know is the crashing
And the wild rocking
Of the ship that is my mind.

~ March 24, 2009 ~