Wonder of Wonders

*This was written for a guy that I was obsessed with my freshman year of high school. I laugh, looking back at myself...*

I thought for sure
Our love was dead
Or rather
Never there to begin with.
I was so afraid
So unsure
We hadn't spoken for so long
I had ignored you
My heart grew cold
As far as you could tell.
I was just angry
Hurt and upset.
But I gazed at you in choir
Kissed your picture good-night
Cried myself to sleep at night
Thinking of you
Remembering you
Wishing you were there with me.

But living on my own was no fun.
I had no reason to be happy.
Nothing to look forward to.
As I passed you every day
I found that still
You made my heart pound
You looked less happy
I liked to think you're upset
Because you miss me
Even though I know that's not true.

Then suddenly
I've had enough
I miss you too much
To keep being pigheaded,
Stubborn,
So I muster up my courage
A I pass your locker
I see you standing there
My heart pounds...
But I do it.
A simple word
Just hello.

A smile lights up your face
A conversation ensues
And in that instant
Everything is right
All I need
I suddenly have.
The world could spin forever
As long as you and I
Could be together
For just as long.

I am now content
I love you
And since we spoke
You seem happy
You laugh more
You smile more
And, just for now
I'll let myself imagine
You're happy
Because of me.